I used to think I was a compliment whore, I would be self degrading and then I would lap up all that contradictory praise, but then I realised, maybe I am actually one of those people who genuinley feels inferior, that my whole air of negativity isn't for attention but because my life genuinley sucks...or of course this could be a cry for attention and I'm just being melodramatic, but me saying that I am melodramatic is being negative, which could be percieved as a cry for help which could be viewed as over the top... tee hee I could do this all day.

But I do feel kinda eh!, a bit more eh! than usual, must be all the flourless crap I'm eating.

I have no idea where this feeling of inferiority comes from, I mean I am not a dumb person, I'm not destitute, I have a pretty great family, a lovely bunch of friends, and despite crappy circumstances for the last few years, my life is by no means over, but this feeling is there, why the fuck do I have to feel crap because I havent got a million dollars, perfect boyfriend and poker straight hair by the age of 20 fucking society and those bloody baby boomers who fucking made everything so difficult for me.

Yeah maybe I'm being a touch over the top, but today I want to blame someone and old people seems like the perfect target.

If I had a boyfriend I wouldn't be having this problem, only a hundred different ones, but my mind would be clouded by sex and cheap romance.