gone missing due to being in Sydney and my aunts place no longer having a net connection and me not being arsed enough to go to the library or a net cafe.

My father is still dead.

I have gone over that last sentence in my head a million times and it doesn't make sense, to me it's a story, fiction, in my head he is still at home being there and I'm just always too busy or too forgetful to call him, it's incredibly stupid, I don't think I will let his death hit me until I have found a substitute, not for him, but the security that he provided... shit at the end of this week he will be dead for two months, gee time flies when you are a half-orphan.

My friend Richie gets hotter and hotter every time I see him, it's not fair, friends are supposed to be friendly looking not 'hot' oh well I have figured out that I should gouge my eyes out and that would not only solve my Richie dillema it would also help with all my other dillemas too, because all my problems can be related to my sense of sight... think about it, it is the truth.

Evil is still around, yeah I have no idea what is going on but I'm trying my darndest not to go along with it... honest I am.

But seriously when a guy tells you they love you and then ask if you love them back... repeatedly, that doesn't mean anything right? right? he drinks a fair bit? and he did last night mouth the words to me several times when I met him for drinks with an old friend of his, it means nothing he's just drunk and confused, I have to stop him now...well soon anyway

Kimberly your life is getting fucked.