The first week in Sptember will suck because it s a) Brother's birthday on the third... without dad. b) it's fathers day on Sunday... without dad.

Brother and I have been in conflict, ok he's been in conflict and not speaking to me, and I did not know why so i got Lib to spy on him and ask why as I am 300kms away, well there was no answer and thought all was lost then i called bother in tears and was wailing "why don't you like me?" and he listed his reasons and i was all like oh duh! it's a long story but it ends in "and Kimberly sucks, but not in the good way"

Since father has died, I took a kinda vow, well it wasn't a vow it was just I ceased pursuing... um err umm sex, which is a new and exciting concept for me as I am... um how do i describe myself without being offensive, I am a total hornbag (it's an Australian term) I enjoy having sex but, since dad died I sort of kinda eased off I mean I still have had the occassional pash and grab, since then, but no boy has seen me naked since well it's been about 5 months (which is incredibly longfor me) anyway to make a long story shorter, last night 'Evil' asked me over to hang out to check on a story he was going to submit to this magazine (I may or may not be an avid reader of this magazine... ok i dmit it I am a dork) but yeah then it turned to us watching "Will and Grace" episodes 19-22 and my head on his shoulder and him saying he loves me and me basically raping him there and then. It wasn't the I love you thing that made me go crazy it was that it was so unexpected, i was only there to watch dvds and criticize his work, and luckily for me both my armpits and legs were hair-free at the same time...

I know i only did it because i am alone... and horny, and if I jumped Richie he would of ran off and throwing whatever he could find at me, and i don't like stuff thrown at me.

But yeah, 'Evil' and me yeah, just needed another sexual encounter to complicate out already bizzarre relationship and it worked beautifully, he will so ignore me for weeks then get drunk and call me at three o clock in the morning from a booth in a sex shop asking me about my most favourite nietzsche quote.

Yet this is the kinda thing that I would think is cool.

I'm making 'Evil' sound like a sexual deviant... which he is, but thats between him me and the various streetwalkers we hire to dance for us.

Have been busy working and feeling ill and etc.

I was reading the sage Tithonus' Diary and he did an online quiz which made me want to do the same online quiz... it was about relationships and as all i want in life is a husband to support me I had to do it.

Heres what they had to say.

eXpressive: 7/10

Practical: 3/10

Physical: 4/10

Giver: 9/10

You are a XSIG--Expressive Sentimental Intellectual Giver. This makes you a Teddy Bear.

Hee! I just want to give you a big squeeze. You are tender, honest, generous and fair. You are an excellent kisser and a sensitive, communicative lover, and you know it. You would never intentionally hurt someone's feelings or overstep his/her boundaries. You have beautiful eyes.

Most people take your laid-back attitude, blazing wit and subtle sexiness and stick you in "friend." But some see your extreme hotness for what it is and latch on. This means you have a few members of your target sex in the bank at all times -- I call this "money in the sex bank" -- but you're too sensitive and thoughtful to exploit them. More than once.

You are so rational and deliberate in an argument that it can frustrate and exhaust your partner. Your fights can take forever, but your press on with them until they are completely resolved and both you and your partner are satisfied. If your partner is weak of will, s/he may just give in -- be wary of this! An emotional or passive-aggressive outburst later will hurt and horrify you.

It is *critically important* that you are able to respect your partner. The moment you lose respect for him/her, you lose everything.

When you make friends, you make them for life -- you can go without speaking to a friend for years and pick up right where you left off. You are completely faithful, both physically and emotionally. You are the second best (to XPIG) parent of any type.

If you are male, you have a huge shlong. Just saying.

sometimes i go holy fuck that is so me, then I will go nah it's just a stupid net test and has no bearing whatsoever, but it sounds right and last night 'Evil' gave a ten minute speech on my eyes, he said they were the most beautiful eyes he had ever seen, I think I might of commented on his nipples, he has some fine nipples.

I need a boyfriend.

a real one that isn't english